3 weeks old.

So my girl is 3 weeks old….it has been a rough but cherished  journey.  She is still feeding every 2 hours which has made it very hard on me.  I have been very tired.  There is a great deal of speculation as to why this is.  I have always had an abundant milk supply.   So much, in fact, that I leak and spray!  I think I let down so much so fast that she finishes super quick.  This means it is likely that she is only getting foremilk and not the hindmilk.  For those of you that know nothing of breastfeeding….the first milk the  baby gets is foremilk  which is very much like 2%…after a short bit the hindmilk comes which is a more filling and substantial meal.  I have tried to keep her on longer but she is like clockwork pulling off.  I could also pump before each feeding but that would mean I would either guess when its time or allow her to cry while I did this.  I don’t like that idea at all.  Pumping makes my nipples terribly sore.  When a baby is born their stomach is the size of a marble and by the third week it has doubled in size….so one would think that she could be better sustained.  She gained plenty of weight so that is a plus.

She is so beautiful and I love every moment we have together.  I will miss the tinyness of the first weeks.   The thought of ever having to leave her causes great separation anxiety in me.

On a different note…..my back has been hurting unbearably and I fear something happened when I had my epidural.  There was a significant amount of bleeding and the nurses were very concerned about it.  The area of the injection site hurts…..and it isn’t something that can be massaged…it is internal.  I can’t lean back without it hurting.  I fear there might be an infection or something of that nature because I have been having slight fevers on a daily basis and getting the fever chills.  I am scared that this could be permanent and will discuss it with my doctor on my next visit.

I think my girl is getting a little chubby in the face…….I love to stare into her eyes and smother her in kisses.  She loves getting baths…..and listening to classical music.  Pictures will be up soon.

This is a picture of my back after getting the epidural……sorry to those who don’t like the sight of blood.